I never wrote my love story in my blogs--part is because when i began to write, the relationship broke up. Is that a curse? lol as a modern people, bathed in the super high-tech information society and as a IT worker, still believe I that the cautious is never gonna let you down. So I forbid myself from writing my relationship in blogs. Sometimes the so called "melancholy" would drive me write some "perfunctory" love story, nothing but how i loved him and the love would never be stronger--this is what i found in my drafts.

In my drafts, in those papers I have forgotten long ago, I found I was saying "The love is never gonna be stronger and i will never love anyone more than i love him" and an unfinished love letter. Sohow I am sort of afraid of seeing this kind of sentence, it is just like seeing envidance which proved me betraying myself.

When Tom told me "Now I feel more like friends", I realised that however we love someone and though we would never love anyone more than him, when he left, just let him go, life has to carry on. And when we thought that we have loved out all our hearts--no, it is not, there will always a bigger heart there waiting for you. That is me.

Now I sometimes still chat with Tom online like friends. The 1000 pages chatting history remains in my computer and I appreciate those days as sweet memory. Thanks for letting me know that I should never feel down because love is never end.

不管那时候多么爱一个人，也许还是会失去他。爱的时候心里总是会想，自己是多么爱这个人，再也无法用同样多的爱给另外一个人。但是我惊奇的发现，下一次的我总是更懂爱，下一次的我能给出的爱更多，下一个人总是我更愿意去爱的人。每一次的爱，我都很投入。

但我也希望，这样的下一次，不要再来。