Now, am i having the life i want?

Is it enough that i am with someone i like? Is it important i am enjoying the 100% freedom? I know what i want but i just dont think i can get it. Thus i am fearing to face my real desire. OH what a coward i am !!!For my whole life, I have always been given up things, pretending i cared nothing about that. Am i really happy with my choices? I now start questioning myself without getting answers.