Winter vacation is totally a mess. Growth is painful but stagnation is even more so.
Poshi disappeared for a long time. He wrote in his page that:"Perhaps I only need to be alive. "
This word stirred up my feelings which is hard to define.

Sigh...

do you mind i sharing this with you?
I am really upset recently. people around me have either found jobs or got offers to further their study. But, only me, i still have my future in a vacancy. i just feel really really depressed and i have nobody to talk to. who can comfort me? i cannot do this all by myself. i need somebody or anyone, who is firmly enough to be by my side.